i am so

i am so happy that i don't have a television. i cannot imagine what the images of madrid look like. and i don't want to know.

i keep hoping that it wasn't al qaeda, i keep trying to convince myself and others that it wasn't them. but i feel less and less sure every minute.

i hope that whoever did this is caught, and given the worst sort of retribution. i hope that it never happens again. people keep saying that italy is next, that spain got this for fighting america's war, and italy is second in line. please, please do not let it be true.